I CAN'T EVEN

I'm in clas right now and all I can think of is this!

i'm done

I'm glad Sammy's ok, but for my own sanity...I think I'm done. ='(

...even just logging in here, my password is deancas1224 -  all my passwords are deancas1224 - this is so painful.

--possibly just an emotional over-reaction to losing Cas again, but I don't think I can handle it this time. I've stopped watching before, but never like this.

once upon a time in vancouver...

It really feels like I'm cheating on Supernatural here, and to bring this post to my blog...

Anyway, I blame the writers for killing Cas. Even though he's coming back, there's no guarantee he'll stay and I'm prepared for the worst. ='(

Enter Rumplestiltskin/Belle ♥

Now, I've been intrigued by Rumple since the very first episode, possibly even the previews. What can I say, I have a thing for strange men. But these feelings have only intensified with every Rumple-centric episode; hell even when he just pops up to make a deal...but after 1.12, I can honestly say I'm a goner.

February 2012 fic recs: deancastiel

Not much this month...although that could be due to my new thing for Once Upon A Time's Rumplestiltskin/Mr. Gold.../Robert Carlyle. I've actually spent the last week on fanfiction.net reading Once fic, and I've come to realize: just because I like the character and any potential pairing, there needs to be more emotion behind it and, in its first season, Once just doesn't have it yet. I love Rumple, but I'm in love with Dean and Cas. That makes fic worth it; the sex just isn't the same if I'm not completely connected with the characters...as I am with Dean/Cas ♥

~Groped by an Angel~

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CAAASSSS!!!!

I haven't posted in a while...but this is definitely worth taking the time to put together!

source: @mishacollins

IT'S CAS!

♥

...with a bedpan =P

January fic recs prt2: deancastiel

Read the ratings on these, and you can see where my head's at. I just want my OTP back! =\

~Groped by an Angel~

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7.17 SPOILERS

"When he and the boys see each other, it's not like, 'Oh, Sam and Dean!' 'Oh, Castiel!' It's amnesia of sorts," Padalecki previews.

I'm wrong, Cas has amnesia and I hate life. I need a drink...

MASSIVE FIC RECS

My all-time favorite fics all in one place. Hasn't been updated in a while, but I kinda like it the way it is. Maybe I'll make another one this summer... Anyway, the link can now be found at the bottom of the page under "Links" because it's too damn difficult going from blog to blog and finding the page in with all the others. A Subtextual Love Story is not what I thought it would be...Maybe I should work on that too.

Anyway, the fic:

MASSIVE FIC RECS

January 2012 fic recs: deancastiel

Looks like I'm making up for lost time. We're only about halfway through the month and I've already got massive recs. I haven't read this many fics in one month in a looong time. They're pretty amazing, too. Might as well post now and keep reading. =)

Misha coming back has done wonders...although I tend to read because the reality is just too damn bleak to deal with and I can't drink anymore.

On a lighter note, I've really become a fan of AU, established relationships and graphic blow jobs; not all in one, but that helps. (End of Term hits the trifecta ;-)

~Groped by an Angel~

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January 2012 fic recs: deancas_xmas

~Dean/Castiel Secret Santa Exchange~

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Dec. 2011 fic recs: deancastiel

I managed to get all my old fics re-tagged days before deancas_xmas! ...then missed the first few days of posting cuz I forgot. Figures. Still, this is my favorite time of year!

...missed my Dean/Cas anniversary, too. Dec. 24th isn't just Christmas Eve ya know...but I was working and...it's like my Supernatural life and real life are trying to merge. It's kinda bumpy, but I'm sure it'll even out this year. I just hope they bring Cas back and not just to kill him off for real...

=/

Anyway, December 24, 2011 = 3yrs of Dean/Cas♥

~Dean/Castiel Secret Santa Exchange~

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Nov. 2011 fic recs: deancastiel

I worked a lot in this month...kinda cool how that means MORE recs, lmao ;-P

I love my iPhone.

These are probably some of my favorites. I'd gotten over Cas being gone, for the most part, because as far as I'm concerned he's not dead. I've never said "dead" just gone; locked inside himself while this big bad Leviathan boss uses his meat. Cas is in there and I'm convinced Dean will get him out. 'Til then, there's fic. And I'm good with that.

Plus, Misha's scavenger hunt was a welcome distraction.

~Dean/Cas Big Bang~

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Oct. 2011 fic recs: deancastiel

With Cas gone, fic is all that's left...

~Groped by an Angel~

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Aug. & Sept. 2011 fic recs: deancastiel

August = BostonCon, two weeks of mostly-non-stop driving to VanCon, then another week driving home.

September = idek; recovery, lol. Oh, right, drinking. The Faire is my favorite place to be drunk. The shows I've seen for years are so much more entertaining when intoxicated.

I had a problem, I know, but I loved every second of it. =P

~Groped by an Angel~

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July 2011 fic recs: deancastiel

Blogging with a Mac is a lot different than my old PC. Took a while, but I think I've got the hang of it.

I got an iPhone for my trip to Vancouver and I just thought it'd be easier, and less creepy, to listen to music in the booth because headphones up there aren't a great idea. I didn't even think about the possibilities of internet connection.

Thus, work=hiding upstairs reading fic, starting the occasional movie. I love my job.

~Groped by an Angel~

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June 2011 fic recs: deancastiel

It's been a tough year. Dean and Cas broke up; I died a little inside. So I took a cross-country trip to VanCon. Then my computer broke down when I got home. I think it was all the pics...

Now Cas is gone and, medically, I can no longer drink the pain away so I'm reading fic again. Fic is better than canon now anyway...which is probably the saddest thing EVER! My Mac has been nothing but good to me, I replaced all my bookmarks and re-tagged everything, so I think it's time to get back to rec'ing. It's been a while. Here's June:

~Groped by an Angel~

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7.01 - Meet the New Boss

I've given up on 'spamming past eps, but this new season is looking amazing and there's no way I can just sit by and not comment! Seriously, already fell in love with it...surprisingly when the Leviathan took over; Misha is incredibly talented!

This is gonna be so much fun! 

**comment on facebook page** 

screencaps by toxic_caps

also:
tracy_loo_who
I laughed. I cried. ...I love my OTP! ♥

5.18 fic recs...

Michela, this one's for you! =)

Every single coda I've read for 5.18 organized by bookmark folders "amazing" which I always post, "great" where only the really-really-almost-amazing fic gets posted and "good" that I never post.

...I should do this for 5.03 and 5.04

a look back...

I have waaaayy too much time on my hands up in booth and I'm obviously still not over the finale...this is what happens when all I want is to ease the pain and given the time to reflect.

Dean
  s.1 - hooked from the beginning, but didn't think too much on it in fear of losing him.
♥s.2 - let myself fall for him and he trades his life for Sammy's
  s.3 - they take him away from me. Dean goes to Hell.

I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition...

Cas
   s.4(1) - hooked from the beginning, but didn't think too much on it in fear of losing him.
 ♥s.5(2) - let myself fall for him and he abandons Dean in favor of Heaven.
   s.6(3) - they take him away from me. Cas' grace is trapped in Purgatory. (theory)

...are you sensing the pattern here?

Following my theory, I think Death should send Dean to Purgatory to save Cas...might make for a nice fic, but my writing ability was lost long ago

This is the bref version of my epiphany, more detailed under the cut:

May fic recs

Really big post with truly amazing fic...too bad it'll probly be the last. I know I've blocked out the last 2mins, but I'm sure fic won't completely allow that and I'm tired of crying. Maybe in a few months when we know more, but for now...I just don't think I can.
 
...unless I circle back to old fic I've bookmarked from last season!

(I will continue to bookmark fic, I just won't be reading it)

~Groped by an Angel~

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