i'm done

I'm glad Sammy's ok, but for my own sanity...I think I'm done. ='(

...even just logging in here, my password is deancas1224 -  all my passwords are deancas1224 - this is so painful.

--possibly just an emotional over-reaction to losing Cas again, but I don't think I can handle it this time. I've stopped watching before, but never like this.

vancon'13...with a twist

Apparently Supernatural and Once Upon A Time are fighting for dominance and it's a draw; I hostly can't have one without the other. Although it's gonna be hell of a lot harder to meet the cast of Once, but not impossible. 'Specially if they get a second season and I just so happen to be in Vancouver for the Supernatural convention next year with an Enterprise right around the corner from the Sheraton and the address of the street known as Storybrooke...
I'm buying tickets for DallasCon tomorrow and it got me thinking about VanCon'13...and I Googled car rentals near the Sheraton.

once upon a time in vancouver...

It really feels like I'm cheating on Supernatural here, and to bring this post to my blog...

Anyway, I blame the writers for killing Cas. Even though he's coming back, there's no guarantee he'll stay and I'm prepared for the worst. ='(

Enter Rumplestiltskin/Belle ♥

Now, I've been intrigued by Rumple since the very first episode, possibly even the previews. What can I say, I have a thing for strange men. But these feelings have only intensified with every Rumple-centric episode; hell even when he just pops up to make a deal...but after 1.12, I can honestly say I'm a goner.

7.17 SPOILERS

"When he and the boys see each other, it's not like, 'Oh, Sam and Dean!' 'Oh, Castiel!' It's amnesia of sorts," Padalecki previews.

I'm wrong, Cas has amnesia and I hate life. I need a drink...

MASSIVE FIC RECS

My all-time favorite fics all in one place. Hasn't been updated in a while, but I kinda like it the way it is. Maybe I'll make another one this summer... Anyway, the link can now be found at the bottom of the page under "Links" because it's too damn difficult going from blog to blog and finding the page in with all the others. A Subtextual Love Story is not what I thought it would be...Maybe I should work on that too.

Anyway, the fic:

MASSIVE FIC RECS

i'll get drunk and do it...

Technically the day before is over, but here's what happened: I did absolutely nothing.

truly beautiful...

in lieu of life

by hesychasm

Fandom is focus. Fandom is obsession. Fandom is insatiable consumption. Fandom is sitting for hours in front of a TV screen a movie screen a computer screen with a comic book a novel on your lap. Fandom is eyestrain and carpal tunnel syndrome and not enough exercise and staying up way, way past your bedtime.

Fandom is people you don't tell your mother you're meeting. Fandom is people in the closet, people out and proud, people in costumes, people in T-shirts with slogans only fifty others would understand. Fandom is a loud dinner conversation scaring the waiter and every table nearby.

Fandom is you in Germany and me in the US and him in Australia and her in Japan. Fandom is a sofabed in New York, a roadtrip to Oxnard, a friend behind a face in London. Fandom talks past timezones and accents and backgrounds. Fandom is conversation. Communication. Contact.

Fandom is drama. Fandom is melodrama. Fandom is high school. Fandom is Snacky's law and Godwin's law and Murphy's law. Fandom is smarter than you. Fandom is stupider than you. Fandom is five arguments over and over and over again. Fandom is the first time you've ever had them.

Fandom is female. Fandom is male. Fandom lets female play at being male. Fandom bends gender, straight, gay, prude, promiscuous. Fandom is fantasy. Fandom doesn't care about norms or taboos or boundaries. Fandom cares too much about norms and taboos and boundaries. Fandom is not real life. Fandom is closer than real life. Fandom knows what you're really like in the bedroom. Fandom is how you would never, could never be in the bedroom.

Fandom is shipping, never shipping, het, slash, gen, none of the above, more than the above. Fandom is love for characters you didn't create. Fandom is recreating the characters you didn't create. Fandom is appropriation, subversion, dissention. Fandom is adoration, extrapolation, imitation. Fandom is dissection, criticism, interpretation. Fandom is changing, experimenting, attempting.

Fandom is creating. Fandom is drawing, painting, vidding: nine seasons in four minutes of love. Fandom is words, language, authoring. Fandom is essays, stories, betas, parodies, filks, zines, usenet posts, blog posts, message board posts, emails, chats, petitions, wank, concrit, feedback, recs. Fandom is writing for the first time since you were twelve. Fandom is finally calling yourself a writer.

Fandom is signal and response. Fandom is a stranger moving you to tears, anger, laughter. Fandom is you moving a stranger to speak.

Fandom is distraction. Fandom is endangering your job, your grades, your relationships, your bank account. Fandom gets no work done. Fandom is too much work. Fandom was/is just a phase. Fandom could never be just a phase. Fandom is where you found a friend, a sister, a kindred spirit. Fandom is where you found a talent, a love, a reason.

~Fandom is where you found yourself~

aaaaand...i'm back =)

FINALLY Comic Con brings a sense of relief an definite peace of mind for s.7.

I have to admit, I've been incredibly depressed and drowning my sorrows in alcohol at the loss of Castiel's character and his relationship with Dean; all the while hoping beyond hope that everything would turn out right and Dean would do whatever it takes to save his boyfriend.

In this video from Comic Con, Misha scared the hell outta me, then gave some reassurance before Jensen made everything better:

"We're basically gonna have to deal with finding Cas inside this new character and getting him back out."

soon...

Hiatus sucks, but it can be useful.

I haven't spammed an episode since 6.09 - well, 6.10, but I never posted it - and we're coming up on 17. So, over the the next three and a half weeks, I will continue spamming right where I left off, starting with pics for 6.10.

I'm gonna try to break later episodes down into what's important and what really hit me, but...some episodes will be easier to do this with than others. Basically, all eps with Cas will be huge, in-between eps will be smaller; at least that's the plan, lol. Let's see how it goes...

spn reigns!

Had an amazing time at the Pennsylvania Renaissance Festival today...finally got to see my favorite juggler♥ =D

Now, normally, this is when I replace an old fixation with a new one.

and so the cycle continues...

Guess it's about that time in every hiatus where I start thinking about life before Supernatural and everything leading up to it.

This is LONG!!

continue if you dare...

Revelation...

So, me being me, I am of course freaking out about practically everything at this point. Might be due to the fact I haven't slept in over 24hrs in an attempt to get back to a normal sleep schedule; I've got school coming up, nevermind the Renaissance Faire I'm going to in PA this weekend...