i'm done

I'm glad Sammy's ok, but for my own sanity...I think I'm done. ='(

...even just logging in here, my password is deancas1224 -  all my passwords are deancas1224 - this is so painful.

--possibly just an emotional over-reaction to losing Cas again, but I don't think I can handle it this time. I've stopped watching before, but never like this.

vancon'13...with a twist

Apparently Supernatural and Once Upon A Time are fighting for dominance and it's a draw; I hostly can't have one without the other. Although it's gonna be hell of a lot harder to meet the cast of Once, but not impossible. 'Specially if they get a second season and I just so happen to be in Vancouver for the Supernatural convention next year with an Enterprise right around the corner from the Sheraton and the address of the street known as Storybrooke...
I'm buying tickets for DallasCon tomorrow and it got me thinking about VanCon'13...and I Googled car rentals near the Sheraton.

once upon a time in vancouver...

It really feels like I'm cheating on Supernatural here, and to bring this post to my blog...

Anyway, I blame the writers for killing Cas. Even though he's coming back, there's no guarantee he'll stay and I'm prepared for the worst. ='(

Enter Rumplestiltskin/Belle ♥

Now, I've been intrigued by Rumple since the very first episode, possibly even the previews. What can I say, I have a thing for strange men. But these feelings have only intensified with every Rumple-centric episode; hell even when he just pops up to make a deal...but after 1.12, I can honestly say I'm a goner.

7.17 SPOILERS

"When he and the boys see each other, it's not like, 'Oh, Sam and Dean!' 'Oh, Castiel!' It's amnesia of sorts," Padalecki previews.

I'm wrong, Cas has amnesia and I hate life. I need a drink...

such a convention whore...

My first convention was 2yrs ago. I've gone to two others since. And I never got around to buying the JPEGs for my photo-ops. But my PC died and I got a Mac...with wireless internet connection to this scanner we've had for years. I just saved myself $120 and my pics came out great =)

7.01 - Meet the New Boss

I've given up on 'spamming past eps, but this new season is looking amazing and there's no way I can just sit by and not comment! Seriously, already fell in love with it...surprisingly when the Leviathan took over; Misha is incredibly talented!

This is gonna be so much fun! 

**comment on facebook page** 

screencaps by toxic_caps

also:
tracy_loo_who
I laughed. I cried. ...I love my OTP! ♥

i'll get drunk and do it...

Technically the day before is over, but here's what happened: I did absolutely nothing.

truly beautiful...

in lieu of life

by hesychasm

Fandom is focus. Fandom is obsession. Fandom is insatiable consumption. Fandom is sitting for hours in front of a TV screen a movie screen a computer screen with a comic book a novel on your lap. Fandom is eyestrain and carpal tunnel syndrome and not enough exercise and staying up way, way past your bedtime.

Fandom is people you don't tell your mother you're meeting. Fandom is people in the closet, people out and proud, people in costumes, people in T-shirts with slogans only fifty others would understand. Fandom is a loud dinner conversation scaring the waiter and every table nearby.

Fandom is you in Germany and me in the US and him in Australia and her in Japan. Fandom is a sofabed in New York, a roadtrip to Oxnard, a friend behind a face in London. Fandom talks past timezones and accents and backgrounds. Fandom is conversation. Communication. Contact.

Fandom is drama. Fandom is melodrama. Fandom is high school. Fandom is Snacky's law and Godwin's law and Murphy's law. Fandom is smarter than you. Fandom is stupider than you. Fandom is five arguments over and over and over again. Fandom is the first time you've ever had them.

Fandom is female. Fandom is male. Fandom lets female play at being male. Fandom bends gender, straight, gay, prude, promiscuous. Fandom is fantasy. Fandom doesn't care about norms or taboos or boundaries. Fandom cares too much about norms and taboos and boundaries. Fandom is not real life. Fandom is closer than real life. Fandom knows what you're really like in the bedroom. Fandom is how you would never, could never be in the bedroom.

Fandom is shipping, never shipping, het, slash, gen, none of the above, more than the above. Fandom is love for characters you didn't create. Fandom is recreating the characters you didn't create. Fandom is appropriation, subversion, dissention. Fandom is adoration, extrapolation, imitation. Fandom is dissection, criticism, interpretation. Fandom is changing, experimenting, attempting.

Fandom is creating. Fandom is drawing, painting, vidding: nine seasons in four minutes of love. Fandom is words, language, authoring. Fandom is essays, stories, betas, parodies, filks, zines, usenet posts, blog posts, message board posts, emails, chats, petitions, wank, concrit, feedback, recs. Fandom is writing for the first time since you were twelve. Fandom is finally calling yourself a writer.

Fandom is signal and response. Fandom is a stranger moving you to tears, anger, laughter. Fandom is you moving a stranger to speak.

Fandom is distraction. Fandom is endangering your job, your grades, your relationships, your bank account. Fandom gets no work done. Fandom is too much work. Fandom was/is just a phase. Fandom could never be just a phase. Fandom is where you found a friend, a sister, a kindred spirit. Fandom is where you found a talent, a love, a reason.

~Fandom is where you found yourself~

boston con

BOSTON, MA

Sunday

August 7, 2011

Hyatt Regency, Cambridge

575 Memorial Dr.

Two of the hottest guys on the planet were only 30mins north of me this past weekend and I even had people to go with. Sure, it was only my parents, but I didn't have to pay for much or drive into Boston so it was a good day, lol.

aaaaand...i'm back =)

FINALLY Comic Con brings a sense of relief an definite peace of mind for s.7.

I have to admit, I've been incredibly depressed and drowning my sorrows in alcohol at the loss of Castiel's character and his relationship with Dean; all the while hoping beyond hope that everything would turn out right and Dean would do whatever it takes to save his boyfriend.

In this video from Comic Con, Misha scared the hell outta me, then gave some reassurance before Jensen made everything better:

"We're basically gonna have to deal with finding Cas inside this new character and getting him back out."

5.18 fic recs...

Michela, this one's for you! =)

Every single coda I've read for 5.18 organized by bookmark folders "amazing" which I always post, "great" where only the really-really-almost-amazing fic gets posted and "good" that I never post.

...I should do this for 5.03 and 5.04

a look back...

I have waaaayy too much time on my hands up in booth and I'm obviously still not over the finale...this is what happens when all I want is to ease the pain and given the time to reflect.

Dean
  s.1 - hooked from the beginning, but didn't think too much on it in fear of losing him.
♥s.2 - let myself fall for him and he trades his life for Sammy's
  s.3 - they take him away from me. Dean goes to Hell.

I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition...

Cas
   s.4(1) - hooked from the beginning, but didn't think too much on it in fear of losing him.
 ♥s.5(2) - let myself fall for him and he abandons Dean in favor of Heaven.
   s.6(3) - they take him away from me. Cas' grace is trapped in Purgatory. (theory)

...are you sensing the pattern here?

Following my theory, I think Death should send Dean to Purgatory to save Cas...might make for a nice fic, but my writing ability was lost long ago

This is the bref version of my epiphany, more detailed under the cut:

shattered

I'm not re-watching the episodes and pics will be even more upsetting, so I'm just gonna touch on the bullet points because this is driving me crazy and I'm finally sober enough to let it all out.

6.21=PERFECT! =)
I never once lost faith in Cas...I knew he had nothing to do with Crowley's plan and knew that Dean wouldn't believe him. My ability to guess my way through episodes isn't completely gone; I could just picture Sam wanting to call Cas and Dean refusing and the show did not disappoint. It was great. Sam calling him anyway...I just knew Cas was there because he would never stop helping them. When Dean was attacked, I  knew Cas would be there...and that heart-to-heart afterward; they are soo in love and I was soo hoping that maybe, just maybe they'd get back together...it even looked good towards the end when Cas saved Lisa's life (although I will admit a slight shock of 'don't take her soul, Cas PLEASE!' before he revealed his true intention)...and the mind swipe. Beautiful. Perfect even...and Dean comparing his brief appearance in their lives as a car crash - dead on.

*I didn't get to fully enjoy the end because I spilled milk all over my bed just as we came back from commercial and spent the next 10mins freaking out, tearing my bed apart and catching what I could of the end of Lisa and Ben!

~*~

6.22=almost perfect... (as in, just when I thought I wasn't going to need that big bottle of vodka and five days I took off work, everything falls apart and I'm drunk for a day and a half)

Gotta admit, it was nice to see two new episodes in a row...but I really coulda used that week in between to hold onto Dean/Cas just a little longer...

Everything was perfect up to the last 2minutes. I still believed in Cas. Dean's T-rex comment was gold. The Impala could be fixed. Sam was whole again, and walking around...then Cas went nuke and everything changed.

cw press release!

CASTIEL IN SEASON FREAKEN SEVEN!!

Returning for its seventh season, this haunting series follows Sam and Dean Winchester, two brothers bound by tragedy and blood to the one thing that runs through both their veins - hunting monsters. This past season, Dean and Sam faced insurmountable obstacles: Sam returned from Hell without his soul, and Dean risked everything to get it back for him. The power struggle between good and evil raged on, with the new King of Hell, Crowley, ultimately emerging as their adversary. Shockingly, Crowley had made a secret deal with Sam and Dean's closest friend, the angel Castiel, who is now a desperate freedom fighter on the losing side of a post-Apocalyptic civil war in Heaven; together, the uneasy allies sought to open a door to Purgatory, where a great untapped well of souls lie waiting to be used as the ultimate form of military power. Sam and Dean reeled from the betrayal by their friend - and raced to stop the angel and demon before they opened that dangerous, otherworldly door. Now, in season seven, the Winchesters will find themselves in an increasingly sinister, changing landscape, up against a new foe unlike anything they've ever fought. They'll find their old tricks, weapons and hiding places all rendered useless. All they'll have is each other. And the certainty that, like the last of the cowboy outlaws, whatever they face, they're not going down without a fight.

The series stars Jared Padalecki as Sam Winchester, Jensen Ackles as Dean Winchester and

**Misha Collins as Castiel**

SUPERNATURAL is from Warner Bros. Television in association with Wonderland Sound and Vision, with executive producers McG ("Charlie's Angels," "The O.C."), Robert Singer (Midnight Caller), Sera Gamble and Phil Sgriccia. (SpoilerTV)

soon...

Hiatus sucks, but it can be useful.

I haven't spammed an episode since 6.09 - well, 6.10, but I never posted it - and we're coming up on 17. So, over the the next three and a half weeks, I will continue spamming right where I left off, starting with pics for 6.10.

I'm gonna try to break later episodes down into what's important and what really hit me, but...some episodes will be easier to do this with than others. Basically, all eps with Cas will be huge, in-between eps will be smaller; at least that's the plan, lol. Let's see how it goes...

font!

I've wanted this forever, couldn't find it on Word but settled for Mongolian Baiti...but after coming to my senses and Googling it, I am now the proud owner of Supernatural Knight font. It's perfect. =D

@jumblejim...

DAMN, I haven't posted in a while...Guess I'll start the new year with this llittle tidbit from Jim Beaver:

jumblejim: "We haven't finished season 6 yet! If there's a 7th (& I have no reason to doubt it), it'll start filming in July." ♥

tv guide results are in...

♥~WE WIN!~♥

=D

I don't think I've ever bene this happy in my entire life! 

GAWD, Dean's gorgeous...*_*

new s.6 teaser!

♥~CAS~♥

It's about time the angel gets some recognition!

=D

omg i just noticed...

This face:

caused by this scene:

...is mirrored here in Dean♥:

...just sayin' =)